Low dose protocols of iboga; a report...

Hi Simon. I would like to express my deepest thanks to you for all the help that you have given me. It’s been three months now since I have picked up any narcotic, and this despite the fact that I attend no self-help group of any kind. All that I can say has helped me stay clean is the journey you have facilitated for me through the ancient portal of ibogaine. The current treatment plan you have recommended has worked beyond my wildest dreams, I find my days empty of the craving and uncertainty that I knew before. In fact, I think this period of my life is the first time that it could be said I am really living. In the past I used to be plagued with neurotic thought. I would constantly question myself and my environment, never pleased with the answers given by those around me. I felt superior and misunderstood, as if I was part of this world, and at the same time, part of another. I found myself irritated by the inability of people at support groups, and hated to be associated with them, their lives consumed by petty issues. It was only after I took ibogaine, that my life began to show me the answers in its complex, weaving pattern. I began to understand the meaningless of over-analysis, of ego so desperately bound to this empty shell, That we are all bound to the same cosmic energy, despite differences in cosmetic feature. Now, when I hear the buzzing of the onset of ibogaine, I feel attuned to the universe. I feel neither smaller than or larger than, but instead I feel completely part of. My sense of right and wrong has never been more perfect, for I can now disband these false preconceptions in the comfort of a universal balance, which speaks more clearly, more resolutely. Everyone should have an ibogaine experience. Thanks for your help in allowing to pass through this true spiritual portal.

Before and after,

It will be.


The resonance that binds us all,

That which stretches beyond the confines of science,

The misconception of man.



It wears no face,

Speaks with no voice,

Has no clothes,

Does not spread its message.



Ever present,

A titan above all titans,



It is in the dark,

And shines with light,

Always there,

Never part of,

Yet always guiding..



It is the coarse energy of creation,

The fundamental block,



Absolute truth seeks not to be verified,

For its existence is verification enough,



It lives in the eyes of the hunter,



In the burning stars, it plays.

TdS

image: thanks to SOFT

Javi's iboga experience

Hi Simon, I am writing you because talking on the phone doesn't seem to be working out for some reason. That stuff was something else, I was pretty much out of my body the entire trip, I relieved my prior Iboga experience in San Pancho Mexico, where I thought I was for a majority of the trip. I saw that as a young kid I have always been very honest and truthful which hurt me a lot because many people took advantage of this. This created a lot of pain, fear and confusion about myself that I almost worked through during highshool but then I dropped out and things went down hill from there. during this time I broke my clavicle 3 times in a month which left me with a few scripts of vicodin. Life began feeling like a burden instead of excitement and joy until I was basically totally relying on drugs for any sort of fun.

I was really bad with cocaine for a while there too, it lost it's buzz tho so I tried shooting it which got me completely addicted to the needle, shooting MSconton, Oxyconton, fentanyl, and eventually heroin and cocaine as speedball. I thought a lot about what I was doing to my body and my future but I was trapped in addiction and a sad mindset about my life. Luckily I also got into psychedelics, mushrooms were always super confusing for me but LSD showed me the truth many times in an amazing way. I tried DMT, LSA, and Salvia D. as well which helped me on the right path.

During the Iboga trip I saw myself in a room with two grandmothers who were knitting. Their nits were these mountains, and they were connected. They were sitting across from each other and one of the nits was a mirror image of the other. I kept appearing in this room watching them nit and disappearing on a journey through the mountains (that they were knitting) and back again. I revisited a fishing village in Bara De Navi Dad, Mexico where my family and I lived when I was 3.

I spent a lot of time in the rain forest in San Pancho and Bara. I remember seeing an image of tree frogs and tadpoles sliding down pink, orange, purple, blue in moonlight, it was like a little scene in the middle of the rainforest. I also saw that the rainforest totally covered the earth n the past or I think it was future actually.

I also distinctly remember hearing this hummer with a low muffler driving around in the rain forest part of a Mexican cartel basically completely running San Pancho, loaded with guns and drugs,. I kept hearing it drive somewhere then hearing a winch ratchet as it loaded up, then it would drive off, unload, load up, all night long, 24/7. I also saw and went into heroin/cocaine dens in the middle of the jungle, I found myself eventually working for these guys...there was so much and is a lot more a lot of it is extremely hard to put into words.

I went to Costa Rica as well and relieved more experiences in the jungle. I also visited Venice Italy and saw that I was madly in love with the place.

One of the most amazing memories I have is being on the beach in San Pancho and seeing this lady and her daughter that we met down there last time we were there. When her daughter saw me she gave me a hug and said that she saw that I had definitely made it, in that moment I felt completely free of all the crappy feelings.

I also revisited some old towns that I guess I had lived in in a past life or maybe it was purely spiritual, hard to say, but I saw a run down house that I lived in with my girlfriend, we were constantly fucked up, that was life. I was madly in love with the life style too, I can feel the feeling of the place and everything and the shittiness of it was so appealing it's very strange to me now.

I've been smoking a little pot at night to help me sleep but I saw that I have a tendency to get carried away and use marijuana as an escape from reality/boredom too if I'm not careful. I have been very occupied playing drugs, guitar, tying fly's, writing, drawing, resting. I am really looking forwards to working and saving money for once in my life and spending it on the tings that are real. I have been sleeping more and more every night, slept the most tonight (6hrs) I have very little craving and I actually found some paraphernalia that was hidden in yy room, that was a paper with a tiny dot of heroin on it, it felt very dirty and unappealing. The thought of trapping myself up like that again is a nightmare. Another part of the trip
I saw myself having quit but still carrying lots of burden in the form of chains, I was a slave still and I had to drag my chains around everywhere and that was my future if I didn't really stop this time round. I saw I had one other chance after this but I would have to deal with the burden still. I really had to be ready to quit, I think my prior iboga experience didn't have much effect on me because it wasn't as good as quality, and I didn't do enough/wasn't ready to quit. I was damn ready this time though!


I can't thank you enough, you helped me get my life back, my parents and brother/family back, and vice versa. I couldn't be happier!


Much love,

Javier

Cops against prohibitian

Hi everyone. I am retired cop and belong to LEAP. WE are against the
drug war and for legalization. I have been on this list for a year now
for I have an opiate addiction. Mine is physical not mental. I use
opiates for chronic pain. I will mention ibogaine to our
organization. We realize drug war does not work. Legalization and
education is key to this issue. I have arrested thousands for drugs
use/sales. We both have the same agenda . Ending criminalization of
drugs in USA. Visit the web site and watch the video. Cops like me who
were on front line saying drug war does not work. Currently, some
prisons are private now with lobbyists in those areas calling for
minimum sentencing on certain drug charges. Corporate America taking
over the jails and jailing drug users (last group of Niggers in USA).
Patrick is right.. Anyway I am not proud at what I did but realize
what is really going on and what can be done to help. I disagree with
the 12 step model which is used.. Currently it is only thing being
taught at rehabs for enormous sums of money.

Sincerely,
mkl

End Prohibition

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Every bit counts

Randy is an advocate for ibogaine and he is just like anyone of us; he is not a doctor or scientist but has been involved in collecting ibogaine experiences for the benefit of others. This email just goes to show that YOU can make a difference as an individual. Your opinion matters and if you speak out it makes a difference; I hope this will inspire others to share their experiences which will lead to change and with hope stop the "war on drugs" and allow us to reacess things.

At least a third of the prison population (Quoted as a growth industry in the USA) are incarcerated for non violent drug related offenses. This leads to you; the tax payer paying to have people locked up who are not a danger to society and are vulnerable due to being placed in the same confines as other prisoners guilty of serious crimes against humanity.

MAPS is involved in psychedelic research among other things; please read on...



MAPS News: Healing Hearts and Minds in 2009 - January


Dear Randy,

Are you aware that your support of MAPS is not only helping to heal victims of sexual assault, trauma from war, and other causes of posttraumatic stress disorder (PTSD), but is also helping to heal the wounds of the war on drugs? Let me explain.

Have you heard that Dr. Sanjay Gupta, a neurosurgeon and Chief Medical Correspondent for CNN, has been selected to be the next United States' Surgeon General? Just two months ago, Dr. Gupta reported enthusiastically about the success of our US Phase 2 MDMA/PTSD pilot study. This means that the Nation's Doctor is going to be walking into his new post in charge of the US Public Health Service Commissioned Corps with a fresh memory of the benefits and successes of psychedelic psychotherapy. Dr. Gupta will be one of Barack Obama's go-to-people for insight into health-related issues. MAPS supporters can now hope that our research and goals will be spoken of highly to the occupant of the highest office of the United States!

MAPS as an organization has always been open to have honest dialogue with the press. This is why Dr. Gupta reported our research on CNN and why in the last few months MAPS' research has been reported in The Economist, Nature, the London Independent, ABC News Online, BBC, New Scientist, the Calgary Herald, and the Sarasota Herald Tribune, among others.

Every time someone with exaggerated fears of MDMA, psychedelics and marijuana, reads or sees one of these positive news stories, they have to reevaluate their beliefs. Due to gobs of anti-drug propaganda, most people who have never used MDMA believe that it is a very dangerous drug without medical benefits. MDMA does have its risks, as does every drug, and these risks are substantially increased in non-medical contexts. Nevertheless, in medical research, MDMA's risks are minimal and its medical benefits are remarkable. People with the false notion that MDMA is excessively dangerous are forced to rethink why this drug is illegal when they learn that people with PTSD have been cured after MDMA-assisted psychotherapy. Similarly, when someone learns that marijuana can safely ease a plethora of ailments, they have to rethink why marijuana is a Schedule 1 drug (considered to have a high potential of abuse and no currently accepted medical use).

Your support of MAPS is educating and changing the minds of the public about the misconceptions used to support drug prohibition. MAPS' work in the lab is healing the hearts and minds of our subjects. Outside of the lab, your support for MAPS is healing hearts and minds warped by the war on drugs.

We at MAPS request your continued support in this New Year as we work diligently towards our goal of making a society where psychedelic psychotherapy and medical marijuana are legally available, without fear, for all those who need it. Please help MAPS by sharing this email news update with your friends who don't already receive it. If you haven't yet become a member, we invite you to do so immediately by going to maps.org/donate.html

Sincerely,

Randolph Hencken, MA
MAPS Communications and Marketing Director


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Here's a sample of what is happening this month at MAPS:
Bush Administration Last Minute Blow to Scientific Freedom
Dutch and US Marijuana Vaporizer Researchers Collaborate
Medical Marijuana Donation Leveraged in Israel
MDMA/PTSD Documents Submitted to Health Canada
MAPS' International MDMA/PTSD Research Progresses into the New Year
The Economist Magazine Profiles MAPS' MDMA/PTSD study
Ibogaine Project has Sixth Subject, Funding is Still Needed
Volunteers Wanted for On-line Survey Research Project on Effects of Recreational Drug Use
Two MAPS Published Books go to Press
MAPS President Rick Doblin PhD Podcast Available at Gnostic Media
Hofmann and Grey make the New York Times
MAPS Bulletin on Ecology and Psychedelics Seeking Submissions
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